Today was an extremely frustrating day for me. We took Christian to his neurologist for an evaluation and though we have no answers, we still have a ton of testing to go through to HOPEFULLY figure some things out. This is disheartening and very frustrating. On top of that, today was so busy, I had NO time to do anything productive so I felt worthless and grumpy. I was feeling discouraged about how foster care was affecting my immediate family, wondering why we do it, and also just worrying about our adventure of homeschooling next year. One thing that needs to be said here is I am a person that often prioritizes many others over my family. That needs to change. The second thing that I need to mention is that yesterday, while on the way to a graduation party for Brady Smith, the song from Steven Curtis Chapman that talks about "LOVE fill up all of my spaces" came on the radio. The kids and I had a great little conversation about how we want Jesus LOVE to shine through us and fill up every area of our lives so that when others see us they can't help but see Him!
So, on to today. Ava was sitting at the table doing something on her Ipod. Then she all of a sudden told me I must find my Ipod so I can read her note and she promptly ran outside. I took my time finding it and let me tell you, when I found it and charged it and read the text message / long letter she had sent. . . WOW!!!!! It literally brought tears to my eyes and revived my heart and just made me so so so happy in general. I am sharing this because I LOVED it so much and I want record of it for me later on. So proud of this girls heart. Seriously the Best Letter Ever!!!!
Hi mom, sorry that I have not go back to you in a while. Also I can not wait to be homeschooled next year. Are you excited to homeschool us next year. Just to let you know we all love you. Also I can not wait for summer to come. You are the best mom I have ever seen. I am sorry for the times I fout with Christian. I should be kinder to him. you will always be the kind girl you always are. I will never let you behind. Also I am sorry for the times I did not obey you and put more on your plate. Sometimes I wish I would not put more on your plate because you already have a lot on your plate. I should be the best dauter I always should be. Sometimes I get tired of the crying baby's but I love Jesus so much that I give my house to the baby's we get through foster care. Also I like when you take me to yard sales. Also I like your giving heart for others I love you mom. Thank you for being my mom I would never ask for a better mom. If I could pick a mom it would be you mom. Sorry for lying to you today and got Christian in trouble. Will you forgive me. Thank you for taking us places you do not want to go to. I love the way you take care of us and give us all we need. I am also sorry for fighting with Christian. I like the way you tought me to clean.
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