Mental Pictures - Memories Forever

I am a picture person. . .I document everything by photos and I love doing it.   I love to capture everything so I can look back and remember and see all that we have done and all the good times.  People pick on me (in a loving way) about how many pictures I actually take, but with today's access to digital photos, who could blame me?  It is so easy.  However, there are moments I feel as though I miss out on because I am so worried about capturing video and photographs of the event. I feel as though I sometimes miss the emotion or just the moment all together.  I want to document all my children experience so they can look back and see how stinking cute and adorable they were, but sometimes I sadly miss the moment myself.  So, I am trying to focus a little more on living in the moment.  Don't get me wrong, I still take 100s of photos, but I am just mentally trying to carry my camera around a little less.  This is a hard transition for me and I actually feel guilty sometimes, because I see a moment and think, "oh shoot, where is my camera?"  :)  I guess habit.

Okay, so now for what this blog entry is about.  Today I lived in the moment. I watched my children and the neighbor girl get on that big yellow bus and no camera in hand, I just focused on them.  I know we are now the third day into school, so they are kind of in a routine now, but it was very freeing to be there watching and hands free to wave and mind free to think and focus on them.  The picture I have in my mind today, is my handsome little boy blowing me a kiss and waving out the window at me!  He had the biggest smile on his face and he was in the greatest mood and it literally brought tears to my eyes as I watched that BIG Yellow Bus driving away with him.  I know more now than I ever have, how quickly they grow up.  I was watching his perfectly handsome and sweet little face peeping up over that window and my heart jumped with gratefulness and glee.  He is amazing and he is one of the greatest gifts ever bestowed upon me.  I didn't even know to ask for him and God gave him to me.  He has blessed me, my hubby and our family more than we ever imagined.  He has a hear to gold and he is his own little person.  He constantly thinks of sweet things like picking a flower and bringing it to me almost every time he is outside.  He loves to take flowers to his teacher, on his own accord, not my prompting and he always tells me how pretty I am.  He mentions everyday as  he enters that he will miss me and he mentions everyday when he departs from the bus, how he missed me that day.  The emotions that rushed though my heart today as I "lived in the moment" with him, as I watched him driving away and took a mental picture, will be in my heart forever.  I am so grateful and blessed to be his mom!  Love that little man!